Today is my birthday, I am 52 years old. Not that the age matters much but I feel so funky being past 50. I am more than half a century old, I have lived 2 lives already and still I have a whole life (or maybe more) ahead of me. Between the age of 24 and 33, I had 4 children and I made a commitment; “I will be there for you until you leave me”, and I was, I organized my life around them, to always be there. Now, as my last child is leaving me, I am free to make a new commitment and it is to me: “I commit to fulfill my wishes and make my dreams come true”. And boy, do I have dreams, big dreams!
As always with life, possibilities come when there is time and space for it, we just need to want it. My dreams were always there, but as my commitment was to something else, there was no space for realizing my personal dreams. Now, as life has shifted, once again, the possibilities are all there and opportunities flow onto my path.
Today is my birthday and I am celebrating the amazing path of life; both the pain and the joy. Every little thing that ever happened to me to bring me to this place and make me who I am today.
You know how little irritating things happen that might throw the day of course? Like forgetting your keys, taking the wrong turn or dropping a glass that explodes in one million shards… It’s really annoying and can put you in a bad mood for the rest of the day. We get hooked on that first negative moment and then we are blinded for all other possibilities. I have been working on a way around this, I look at the other side – the silver lining of the cloud. Sometimes, admittedly, I have to look really hard to see any redeeming qualities in what happened, but they are always there, or maybe I have gotten really good at finding them (what else can a desperate girl do?).
I made a poster where I write such situations, minor stuff. (see pic) To the left is “negative” in red and on the right is the “silver lining” in green. Some things are really obvious when they happen, others take some pondering 🙂 I have 3 such “obvious” silver-linings:
- – Falling + Not hurting myself and realizing that I can fall without hurting myself 🙂
- – Stomach illness + Lose some pounds
- – Make a mistake with a recipe + A new exiting product
The thing is that it sits there, the poster, reminding me of little silver-linings and inviting me to write more. I am having a tough one right now and I don’t know how it will end up, but I am sure there will be a silver-lining and then it gets easier to handle.