Tonight I met a young lady that has been a client of mine. When she came to me a few years ago she had just embarked on the journey of the eternally slim = anorexia/bulimia. She was also “self-medicating” = vodka and cocaine. She had just turned 17, was the biggest liar on earth and thought she had control….
Enter Mama Anna. The girl came to see me, I saw where she was at and after that I worked with her, or rather, first she worked against me and then we worked together. She realized very quickly that I could “read” her and this made her safe. Finally she went into rehab for her eating problems. At this time she was off the vodka and cocaine. She was in rehab for 4 months and when she came out she started the journey of healing.
Now she is a gorgeous young woman; she looks good and she is in balance. In her eyes there is a sadness and a wisdom that will always stay. She knows what suffering is, and she knows what it means to change lanes in life. She changed because she wanted to. The work I did with her was to help her want to change. It was about self-definition and where she wanted to go. When we first met she hated the person she had become, and this only pushed her further into self-abuse. Once she was clear about the fact that she could change all this, she started healing. The healing process is always long and hard.
“I take it one day at a time” she said to me with sadness in her eyes “one day at a time”.
I see pride, I see strength, I see belief….and yes, I see pain. I know that this pain will stay part of her forever, a bit of who she is. I also know that she is a mighty strong woman – I can read that behind the pain. One day there will sit before her a young girl full of lies and imbalances, and she will know what to tell the girl to give her the will to live. She will tell the girl what I told her; The Truth.
She calls me her Fairy Godmother. I am honored and touched by this show of affection. I told her the truth, and she accepted it. This young girl managed to change her whole life around, without much support, and she fights every day. She made a choice.
Changing lanes is a matter of will – nothing else.