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55 – The age of Freedom

I am 55 years old and I feel like my life just started.

When I was a child and a young girl I had such dreams but I was also extremely shy and insecure, so the dreams stayed just that – dreams, my fears were very effective. The few times I voiced my dreams, I was told to forget it. “That’s ridiculous”, they said, “You can never do that. What if you fail?” Does this sound familiar? Fear of failure became the name of the game. And I was scared.

I grew up and had children, 4 of them, and became a full time mother for the next 30 years. I used the time wisely by educating myself and getting to know ME. It forced me to face my fears, to acknowledge that I had taken the easy way out by listening to the negative voices in and around me INSTEAD of just going for that dream, even if I would fail.

One day the children were all adult and had left home, I had only myself to answer to and I realised that now, NOW is the time, this is my chance to dust off those dreams and make them come true!

The world around me says that I am too old, but this time I am not believing anybody but myself. I’m old enough to not care. The only voice I am listening to is MY inner voice. And she tells me it’s time to rock’n roll!

One of my most attractive dreams as a child was to be part of a circus. I wanted to ride ponies and do funky stuff.

Well, guess what? Now I am doing just that; I am part of a troupe that do pony-shows and fire-shows. I do mounted archery; shooting arrows from a galloping horse. If you can’t join a circus – create one!

I also want to do acrobatics in the air, I feel passionate about it. And though I am fit as a fiddle it is far from enough. Besides which, I have a fear of heights. Am I going to let this stop me? HELL NO! Aerial acrobatics? Sure it will take time, who cares? I have all the time in the world and I am on this exciting life journey.

The most important thing I did to this point was bringing up the children. Was I a good mother? I have no idea, but I was the best mother I could be and this goes for everything else I have ever done and will do. This releases me from those oh so painful regrets that I struggled with all the time, I was the master of regret.

So to all you people, young and old; life is an ongoing journey and you never really know where it will take you. Don’t let anybody dictate your rules. And don’t for a minute believe that age is an issue: On the contrary, the older you get, the more freedom and choices you have.

Here some pictures of what I did this magical 55th year of my life

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Wood Horse

Happy Chinese New Year!

Wood Horse

Wood Horse

After two years of introspection and hard work, laying bricks for the future, this year will bring action. Victory, adventure and production are key-words for this coming year. I have laid my bricks carefully and painstakingly, and SMACK on the day the Horse year started, the results began coming in. Every day there is news and positive signs for the future. The Horse is an animal of great speed and endurance, it might be a good idea to keep your eyes on the goal so you don’t get side-tracked.

Love the Horse ❤

THE QUEST

The Road-trip I took was actually a quest; something I have known for years had to be done but which I also dreaded, pushing it on the future year after year. And now I did it! Though I had second thoughts when cars kept breaking down…

Life is a forward motion and we have to leave things behind, it’s as simple as that. The place I have lived and loved almost my entire life is one of them. Somebody else owns it now and it has become my past. I choose to go forward, not backwards and that means that I have to let it go. I will never go back there again and it is liberating. What surprised me was that it was easier than I thought. 🙂

I left for my trip with no expectations, my only focus was to make closure with my past. Along the way situations, people and places happened and I had the time to just be in it. Instead of going into the past, I found myself in the present and the past had lost its grip on me.

Letting go is empowering and it opens up for so many new and different possibilities, some (or most) of them completely unexpected. Life is truly an adventure.